There are times when I’m really disturbed; moments where I could be described as extremely annoyed, excessively worried, pissed off. They’re rare, depending on a number of factors – my moon cycle, how much I’ve meditated, who’s involved – but when they come they bring a feeling so big, filled with so much energy, that it soon becomes emotion and it’s all I can do to contain myself. I used to believe these rampant emotions were a signal, that they pointed to a failure in my carefully reprogrammed mind-body connection, that I should know better. I would tell myself that…
I felt the power in the words as I wrote them. I felt them teach me what it means to be softer, feminine. I felt the stillness it takes to receive and reject what is and isn’t for me. It was in deep practice I learned, that Come Find Me will change your life, if you let it. That liminal space between openness and stillness will become a stage for others to earn entry, into the truth of who you are. Perform for me, I have remembered to say. Give me your best shot. Because Come Find Me is a…
Isolation that is not born from choice destroys lives. That feeling, like you’re the only person inhabiting a small island, can feel incredibly debilitating. Add to this a view that isn’t miles upon miles of endless water, but whole worlds close and clearly visible, of which you are not a part. Worlds where people are fulfilled, active and largely oblivious to the depth of contribution you’re able to make. There is a different quality to this experience of isolation; where being alone is one thing, but being alone and in tight proximity to connection is quite another. Whether you’re on…
This morning, I issued an invitation to the universe, for it to come find me where I am. I am not lost, I am simply here. I have known for a while that my biggest need, right now, is to remain in the present moment. It’s a need to hold a deep awareness, a genuine appreciation, for what is happening within my inner space, now. It has meant removing myself from social media, declining any distractions that come masquerading as entertainment, being clearer with boundaries. What I did today, during my meditation, was acknowledge my need to remove all…
There is a part of us all that looks to the perfect future date, the perfect time or set of circumstances before we take action; whether that’s having a baby, moving home, emigrating, or even changing jobs. There is the belief that at some point the stars will align and the one thing we want will happen, make sense, suddenly fit into the realms of a logical decision. We as a human species are extremely thought-oriented; we wait and attempt control, without realising the ripple effect this can create in other areas, or the messages we are unconsciously sending to…
This may come as a surprise to you, but I don’t enjoy teaching beginners how to meditate. In fact, one of the questions I least like directed my way is How do I meditate? or even, How do I stop the chatter in my head when I close my eyes? I used to, until quite recently, feel that it was my role to answer questions like this. Surely, I believed, it’s within my job description to provide practical solutions for quieting the noise, or unique methods to stop thoughts from drifting down memory lane, or zigzagging across future avenues.…
Let’s talk about standards. Let’s dive into what we are and are not willing to accept from our spiritual lives. I’m known personally, for having extremely clear boundaries and a yardstick that can deeply trigger people. It’s not that I’m rigid in my beliefs, or in my way of moving through the world; it’s that there are a definite set of parameters very few people, or institutions, will survive if they breach. And by ‘survive’, I mean be allowed to access me, or my life, in the same way again. It sounds militant, but I’ve made the decision that my…
Embrace the freedom you have in life to pivot. Imagine yourself on a rollercoaster, and instead of holding on tight when in free fall, practice letting go. Face the fear with complete release and see how different it feels, how the experience changes. Practice trusting that there are forces and mechanisms around you, seen and unseen, that will keep you safe. There is a design that is bigger than you understand and if only you let it do its job, life will be bumpy but ultimately okay. This March, trust the creators of your life as much as you do…
There are an extraordinary amount of healing and therapeutic modalities available to people choosing to explore the inner workings of who they are. As a mentor I see it as my calling to experience any and all that resonate with me, knowing that if they do, I’m sure to meet with people who require that exact knowledge on their own paths. Being able to pivot with a client’s needs and layers is what helps me to facilitate the changes that would usually require multiple practitioners. I was excited when I first moved into the sphere of embodiment work; the ability…
When we are in the infancy of our self-help journeys, the declarations we make to end all our unhelpful patterns will usually spark apprehension. Suddenly, the fear of how these cyclical habits within us might respond when called out is very tangible. We feel their discomfort at potentially being challenged by us, their host, as awareness readies us to reclaim our power. The further down this road of self-knowledge we go and the more layers of healing we uncover, one might wrongly assume that changes occur like falling dominos. The reality is that a fatigue sometimes, and often does, set in instead. To…
I am sometimes asked what my own coping mechanisms are and how it feels to be surrounded by so much suffering, to spend sessions listening to distress and sorrow, to see and hear people at the worst lows of life. When I shrug and say it doesn’t affect me, or that I am used to it, I understand I could appear as somewhat apathetic. I am fully aware that my composure and ease with the topic may, to an outsider, imply that I am proficient in switching off or that I have become desensitised to the suffering of others. This…
Some relationships will simply not survive working with me; they’re not built to withstand the brutality of their own truths. These are the relationships you have with mothers, fathers, friends, children, lovers, spouses, colleagues. They are your relationships with institutions, pets and even, with your former, present and future selves. There is something that you should know, before you ask for help and it doesn’t even matter whom you’re asking. That something is this; The right advice, even if it leads you to despair and suffering, may still be the right advice. The wrong advice, even if it appears…
I never knew much about magic until a few years ago. There was always a calling toward it, an attraction that felt mutual, yet neither it nor myself were prepared to meet the other half way. So magic circled my existence whilst I settled with making birthday cake wishes and vision boards, in order to manifest my desires. My journey into it was made longer, I’m sure, due to the fact I wasn’t motivated enough to dive in, knowing how deeply I wanted to swim and the dedication it might require. It wasn’t tricks or sleight of hand that…
There is a beast that entered this world long before any of us; when starved it remains only dormant and yet when fed, its growth is exponential. It is soundless and invisible to untrained ears or eyes and simultaneously, felt so deeply that no unmastered sense can truly function in its presence. On the rare occasion I meet with others for whom its existence is clear, there is a sigh of relief. There is the unmistakable soul-nod to how sweet life is, in this viewing gallery of awareness. Here, our foundation of certainty is not so easily shaken. Here, we…
There are moments that regularly arise in life, when the only two options we have are bravery or familiarity. These moments show up more often than we likely acknowledge, from the adventurous decision to swap our usual dish in our favourite restaurant, to the more impactful one of quitting the job that is slowly strangling our soul. Many pursuits of bravery we are willingly coerced into; we seek them out and are highly receptive to the list of reasons why *insert your desire here* is important, useful, necessary. We present with a show of reticence, but what we want is…
I have a varied friends circle, I wouldn’t call it large but yes, it’s definitely wide and diverse in a lot of ways. The folks I hang out with have different faiths, beliefs, ethnicities, economic backgrounds, education levels and marriage statuses. They work in multiple industries, anywhere from teacher, exotic dancer, lawyer, barmaid, right across to retired or unemployed. What’s great is that whilst there are similarities, no two are the same and each unique soul in turn, allows for very particular parts of my own identity to emerge. Over the past year however, I’ve noticed something peculiar happen with…